{"id":93,"date":"2015-02-18T00:04:31","date_gmt":"2015-02-18T00:04:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/?p=93"},"modified":"2015-02-18T00:04:31","modified_gmt":"2015-02-18T00:04:31","slug":"you-died-three-years-ago-10-28-14","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/?p=93","title":{"rendered":"you died three years ago 10.28.14"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"p1\">\n<p class=\"p1\">You died three years ago yesterday, and tonight I took the dogs out to the lake in the crepuscular light. There I found, writ in river stones, your name.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">The sun was still salmon-colored on the mountains. It gave me the soothing feeling of not-so-alone.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">I should have run, run so fast the grief could not catch me. I love the feeling of outrunning sadness, just breathing, the dogs weaving back and forth across the trail. But instead I smoked the half cigarette I found in the ashtray, as you would have done. I sighed with relief when I found it, a small tribute to you, and lit it, letting the smoke settle around me like sorrow.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-94 size-large\" src=\"http:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/IMAG0088-1024x683.jpg\" alt=\"IMAG0088\" width=\"625\" height=\"417\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/IMAG0088-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/IMAG0088-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/IMAG0088-624x416.jpg 624w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 625px) 100vw, 625px\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>You died three years ago yesterday, and tonight I took the dogs out to the lake in the crepuscular light. There I found, writ in river stones, your name. The sun was still salmon-colored on the mountains. It gave me the soothing feeling of not-so-alone. I should have run, run so fast the grief could [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-93","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-bullshit"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/93","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=93"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/93\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":98,"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/93\/revisions\/98"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=93"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=93"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.copperandcoal.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=93"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}